No, I don't really think I jinxed it, but last night I was informed that I didn't get the position at the university. The one professional job in the city of Pocatello, the one job I really, really wanted, the thin thread I hung such heavy hopes on... no wonder it broke.
I broke a little too. Why is it that I always end up crying the night before interviews and important meetings? Last time it was the writing center and I watched I am Sam the night before....good move, I looked like I had goggles on, underneath my skin. And this morning I met with the director of the English departmend regarding my future ESL studies. Puffy, puffy eyes.
I am not in a super good place right now. It will get better I am sure, but right now I am low and blue.
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